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Monday, October 27, 2008
Yesterday, I was looking at my blog entry and noticed that I actually said something bothering. Remember I mentioned that I realized that I was explicitly unhappy and sad? And that I felt really isolated and alone? Well, that wasn't what I was supposed to say. I just remembered this morning. What I actually realized was...oh my. I totally forgot what I wanted to say. Damn it. Now I'll never know what I realized. Sigh. Anyway, let me just tell you how my day went. I don't usually narrate the events that happened to me here in my blog because I usually put here the feelings that I feel at a particular moment. But I am glad to say that what happened to me today affected me somehow.
Today, I had my midterm exams in Curidev. Ms. Acosta was right. Her exam was basically an application of what we have learned. It turned out to be fairly easy, and I think I did pretty well. I have a really good feeling about this one. After that, chey and I watched High school musical 3, and surprisingly enough, I liked it. I loved it, even. And I don't care whatever others say about it. I don't give a damn about every single negative comment that others made about the film. All I know is that I enjoyed watching it. And then after that, we still had to attend PREVAIM (but we were eventually late). All in all, I feel really normal today. Yes. Normal. I don't feel different, and good about today. Just normal. Habituated. Nothing fun. No good changes. They might say that I'm just not looking at the good things that are happening to me. Well, actually I do. But I don't really see the point. Everything that's just happening to me are pointless. The songs I listen to are meaningless and useless. I hope you're used to me being like this. At least I'm being honest to myself. I feel bad, really bad. And I'm starting to think that it doesn't even matter at all. Can you hear me? If you can, please. Hear me. Heed my prayers. Make my wishes come true. Make things meaningful again. Please. I don't think I can handle it anymore. Please. Please. Hear me. I just want to be happy.
10/27/2008 08:47:00 PM
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