I just saw my previous entry, and began to think to myself, "Boy, was I that mad?". Well, obviously. Whew. Looking back, I must admit that I was indeed surprised to see what I have written on that blog post. That is so not like me, though I was the one who wrote it. Now you see what happens to a person like myself gets extremely angry. Well, to all that I have hurt, whether you guys know it or not, I want to deeply apologize. I was just carried away by what has happened, and I am sorry. I hope you guys are too. Moving on...

I can't help feeling bad about my life right now. I know, i know. You must be tired of hearing shitty stuff about my life, and it doesn't look like you have heard anything goo from me. Well, you see, right now, my life lacks an inspiration, so it continues to be boring, and somehow, meaningless. I don't see the reason for doing certain things anymore. I just feel like my life has become very much habituated, and all the while the same. Nothing seems to change. And at times like this, I feel very much useless and unimportant. I feel like nothing good is ever gonna happen to me. I want to die now. But of course, I won't do that. I haven't reached that point yet (but I'm almost there). Now, I don't know how much long I have to wait for all this. Nothing just seems to be right anymore. Yes, there are times when I feel good about what's happening, but most of the time, I feel alone, and desolate, and lonely. And the worst part is, though I know exactly why I'm feeling this way, I couldn't even do anything about it.

10/23/2008 08:55:00 PM