I was just thinking of what I want most in my life, and began to realize that because of my constant thinking of having an "interpersonal relationship", I have totally forgotten that what I want most is to teach and to study. That's my life. Studying and learning is what I am good at. That's what I do best. What the hell happened to Mela reading the history of Jose Rizal? Didn't I value what I have learned? Actually, I do. I have just forgotten. I often forget especially when there are a lot of things going on in my life. Damn. I need coffee. My eyes can't take it anymore. Anyway, so there. regarding what I want in my life. I want to read and to study, but not to the extent of pushing my limits. I just want to have a balanced life. I want to be happy. And having a fucking boyfriend isn't the only way I can be happy. There are so much things to do. Hold on. Great. Now I'm starting to crave for coffee like crazy. What the hell is wrong with me? I'm starting to feel drowsy.

I want to go to Stanford or Yale someday. I want to experience such education in such prestigious Universities. Haha. Anyway, I'll be working on my short story for CREATIV so, I'll catch you later.

10/29/2008 12:34:00 PM