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Tuesday, November 11, 2008
My first ever demo-teaching in the College level was yesterday. I wasn't able to blog about this very important thing as soon as i got home because I had been down (devastated as you may say) last night.
And so the verdict for yesterday's demo? Generally sucky, but I pulled it off. It was generally sucky because not all the time the students were participating. Also, there were times when the students had something to say and I just did not know what to tell them. Jesus! Those moments were terrifying. So, if you were in our class, you would have noticed the "dead-air" or silent moments that I had to bear during my demo. But enough of the bad things. Let's move on to the good things about this demo. First and foremost, it was a team-teaching. Thanks to Jade, I was able to stay in front and not faint. She really helped me throughout the lesson, and we supported each other all the way! Yay! Also, though the dominant feeling that is conquering my whole being right now (yes, I'm still feeling that way until now) is fear and probably embarrassment, I know (in mind) that that's how a sane human being who just taught for the first time would actually feel. And so I have to come to an understanding that it's okay to feel this way. Besides, my students, well some of them, turned out to be really good-looking so, I think that's a good thing. So last night, the night after my demo, I was feeling really down. In fact, I still am. That demo-teaching had a huge impact on me, that I just couldn't stop thinking about it. I'm even blogging about it now, when I'm supposed to be doing my critique paper for speecom. But you see, I'm not. I'm actually in the process of getting it over with. I'm trying to get the feeling that there is really nothing to worry about! It was just a demo. It's not like somebody died or something. And besides, your students probably have forgotten you, and what you taught them, so let it by! Damn it! Oooops. Sorry for the outburst. Anyway, there are still lots of things to do, and there's no room left for procrastination so I better be doing the things that I seriously need to do. I have to do good this term, and until I graduate. There's more to come and so if I do not take things seriously, my grades would suffer. I would not want that to happen, would I? SO LET ME JUST STOP THIS DRAMA AND SIMPLY MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE. The demo's over. Leave it. And so the lamb finally got over her terrifying experience. The end. (HOPEFULLY) I wonder what happened to the Lion.
11/11/2008 05:42:00 AM
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