And now I know why I must be happy...

Monday, December 15, 2008

A Shuffle Survey

1. Shuffle your iPod/Mp3 player/iTunes/Whatever else you have

2. Answer the questions by the song title that comes up

3. Don't cheat! It makes eveything more fun!

[ONE] How is your life going to be in five (5) years?

Song: She will be loved by Maroon 5

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved...

***In five years, I will be loved. (giggles) That's sounds exciting. I'm already looking forward to it.

[TWO] How is your love life going for you right now?

Song: Suddenly everything has changed by Bethany Joy Lenz

I believe this is heaven to no one else but me
And I'll defend it long as i can be
Left here to linger in silence
If i chose to would you try to understand

***Woah. Now I am amazed. This is particularly true in my love life now because... no one really believes that I can get who I want. No one also believes that I love him. No one thinks that I can take that risk of getting hurt, although I am absolutely positive that I won't regret this. But I will defend what I believe in. I know that what I am feeling is heaven to no one else but me. And I don't care.

[THREE] What pisses you most about the opposite sex?

Song: I don't care by Fall Out Boy

I don't care what you think
As long as it's about me
The best of us can find happiness
In misery

***Boys can be really controlling and conceited and clingy. But of course, there could be exceptions (hopefully).

[FOUR] What does your family really think of you?

Song: Suppermassive Black hole by Muse

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
The superstars sucked into the 'supermassive'
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole

***I'm not entirely sure what the song means. Am I like some kind of Black Hole? If yes, is that a good thing? Hmm. Give me some time to figure this one out.

[FIVE] What is the worst thing that has ever happened to you?

Song: If you didn't love me by Corrine May

What if I woke up and couldn't hear a sound
And all that I could see was darkness all around
That would all be nothing
Compared to what I'd feel
If you didn't love me

***There was a time when I actually felt that no one else loved me. And I felt really devastated that time. It was as if I did not hae the strenght to continue with my life. Every damn day I woke up with fear and anxiety. And I felt like comitting suicide. I don't know how and why I even made it. That time just felt like... endless.

[SIX] What will your first/next time having sex be like?

Song: Given the Chance by The Starting Line

What can i say that can explain
All this time I'm loving life
Theres not a day that i can't say
All this time i'm singing out
Singing a song about
A dream that has come true

***I'm guessing this means it's gonna be good. (lol)

[SEVEN] What is your main goal in life?

Song: Dream by Callalily

As i walked along the sky
Of my dream you came alive
And it feels you're made to change
My whole life
And i know you will be there
There for me to make me stare
And it will be always and
Forever in my dreams

***For all my dreams to come true. That's my main goal.

[EIGHT] What do the boys in your school think of your looks?

Song: This is me by Demi Lovato and Joe Jonas

This is real
This is me
I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be now,
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I found who I am
There’s no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me

***I guess boys think of me as someone real. Someone who is exactly where she's supposed to be. And I have no idea what that fucking means.

[NINE] What do you really want in life?

Song: Something to believe in by FM Static

I don't wanna look
I just wanna find
Can you give me something to believe in
Keep your religion,
Don't need your lies
I'm just looking for one good reason
Feel like it's teenage hunting season
But nothing out there sounds half decent
Who's out there? who's going to save us
Before we all fall through the cracks in the pavement

***I want something to believe in. I don't want lies. I just want reasons. I don't want teeanage reasoning. I want something true. Yes. I think that's what I really want.

12/15/2008 10:15:00 AM

A BEWILDERED student from a bewildering city.

Almost legal.

Very open-minded.

Stubborn at times.

Still trying to make something out of life.

~~Hate SMOKERS.~~
I don't really hate smokers now.
I have become one myself.
Hate LIARS.
Hate IMMATURES.
Hate SLACKERS.